CD 3

Well, I haven't got much to say.  Today is the 3rd day of my cycle.  Pretty uneventful.  It's a pretty easy going AF. 

A few weeks ago I went to Walgreen's to buy something or other and I ran into a product that claims to be able to tell you if you are fertile or not but you have to use it on the 3rd day of your cycle.  I meant to go back and check it out yesterday but was way too tired after work.  I'll try to remember to do that today after work.  I hope it doesn't require first mornings pee...cuz that's long gone! 

Some of this baby stuff sounds like magical potion making.  Imagine walking through a creepy forest, to the base of a huge tree to find a short bent over, crazy grey haired, bony fingered, raspy voiced, poorly clothed, ancient woman to ask for the ability to bear children.  She'd say: "Drink this bottle of azure cough serum at the commencement of your monthly cycle.  Towards the median of your cycle behold the changes of your fluids.  You must diligently inspect these fluids until you produce the magical egg white mucus.  At the instant to which you see this egg white mucus you must make love to a male lover of which you desire to father your offspring.  You will need to bide your time for exactly 2 weeks.  After this 2 week period, you will need to mix the early morning's piss of your next missed menses and this stick to know if the potion has worked.  You will know you have fallen pregnant if 2 lines magically appear on the stick.  If by this time you have found your pursuits were unsuccessful, come back and I will give you a stronger potion for the next cycle."

As this is only my 3rd cycle, I haven't tried much in the way of encouraging conception besides sex and roughly gaging when I might ovulation.  On CD 1 out of sadness,I did order amazon preseed and opks on amazon for the first time but I'm starting to feel like I don't want to get too far deep in to this stuff.  It can consume you if you do, I think.  I'm the type who really can't focus too much attention on one thing without everything falling apart.  For one, my house is a mess!  I've been spending too much time on the internet watching ttc YouTube and putting in ttc searches into google.  I've also been a bit stressed about it in real life too.  Being sad about AF coming, worrying about 'what if I cant?'  What I really need to do is put a damn load of laundry in the washer!  Clean up my closet!  Hang up my dang clothes!  How bout some vacuuming!?  Put my house and life back in order and stop obsessing over something I really can't control.