CD 2

Though I was upset AF came, I have to admit she's been a gentle visitor.  I ran out of my large horse tampons and have been able to manage with the smaller size I usually use for the tail end of my cycles.  I also haven't really had much cramping.  I do think I have less cramping because I didn't eat anything yesterday.  That is NOT like me to skip meals let alone not eat a thing for a whole day. Weird as it may be, I was not hungry.  I think there is something about the bloating of a period that makes me feel full.  I was also a trifle upset to be getting my period and I didn't find the desire to really get up and leave my room until later in the night. 

I know I have only been ttcing for 2 months now but I'm annoyed with people who seem to have had little trouble conceiving.  My mom (though she has no idea I am ttcing) was going on about how all she had to do was say the word sex and she would get pregnant.  My mother was married in august at the age of 21, exactly 9 months later right after getting married my brother was born.  But who knows if my parents were practicing before marriage as well.  I'll ask her another time....  I wouldn't want her to get suspicious of my adventures in babyland.

Another friend of mine, who is 1 year younger than me, got pregnant the first month she tried unprotected sex with her BF.  She was 28 at the time.  She quickly aborted because she wasn't ready for a baby.  But that's crazy because she's very over weight, eats very poorly, doesn't exercise, smokes cigarettes and other green substances (like a chimney), drinks like a fish, has thyroid issues and had major surgery on her bowels.  All of that among other health issues and here she is, pregnant instantly!   (I really do love her dearly though)  It just goes to show you, when it's your turn, it's your turn.  And when it's not, it's really not!  Being able to conceive and have a baby is truly an enormous blessing!

Because we don't know when we will be so lucky as to conceive, my BF and I have decided to keep this whole ttcing thing a secret from everyone.  We basically just don't want the pressure of family and friends constantly asking how our sex life is going!  "Did he get it in there good?"  "Did he nail you on your baby making days?"  "Try doggy style.  He'll like that and it will go in deeper."  LOL They wouldn't say those things exactly but I feel like this whole thing pretty much just breaks down to sex, so if they are asking how its going and maybe offering suggestions, they are essentially getting involved in the nitty gritty details of our sex life.  While ttcing can get frustrating, we would like to keep the happenings of our bedroom sacred and secret... I'll just type about it on a public blog over the internet!  Of course, no one in the real world, in my circles atleast, knows anything about this blog.