Nothing much to report. My OPKs are still negative. But I did have a lot of cm in my undies today. It was the creamy kind though. I guess the cm starts to increase around this time in the cycle. BF and I haven't had sex since before my period. No sign of ovulation symptoms yet (bloating, swollen breast etc etc)
I'm about to go to bed I wish I had more time to chat but I must go. Ttys!
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Friday, August 24, 2012
CD 6
I decided to check my cm and take an OPK just so I can know how to use and read the OPKs and what non fertile cm should look like. Checking for cm is uncomfortable and weird. The few times I've tried it, my finger didn't really produce much of anything. This time I went in with my finger like a dip stick and only saw a shiny finger from wetness. So I went back in and curled my finger out to kind of hook some fluid out. The cm looked creamy and off whitish... But honestly, my cm always seems to look like this in my undies. I guess this means not fertile until I see ewcm or wet cm.
The OPK had 2 lines on it but the control line was darker than the other which means not fertile.
Also, how in the world am I supposed to know how high, the position and the opening of my cervix is?? It all feels the same in there: Squishy! And I don't think my finger can reach the top...
Oh well internet search: what the cervix should feel like, here I come! I will try the cervix exam again tomorrow.
The OPK had 2 lines on it but the control line was darker than the other which means not fertile.
Also, how in the world am I supposed to know how high, the position and the opening of my cervix is?? It all feels the same in there: Squishy! And I don't think my finger can reach the top...
Oh well internet search: what the cervix should feel like, here I come! I will try the cervix exam again tomorrow.
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
CD 4
Wow! This period seems to fly by! I can't believe I'm on CD 4 already! Maybe if i continue to blog each day, the ttw will just fly by too. We'll see. I got my Preseed, opks and hpts yesterday. BF was excited about trying preseed out. lol ttys!
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
CD 3
Well, I haven't got much to say. Today is the 3rd day of my cycle. Pretty uneventful. It's a pretty easy going AF.
A few weeks ago I went to Walgreen's to buy something or other and I ran into a product that claims to be able to tell you if you are fertile or not but you have to use it on the 3rd day of your cycle. I meant to go back and check it out yesterday but was way too tired after work. I'll try to remember to do that today after work. I hope it doesn't require first mornings pee...cuz that's long gone!
Some of this baby stuff sounds like magical potion making. Imagine walking through a creepy forest, to the base of a huge tree to find a short bent over, crazy grey haired, bony fingered, raspy voiced, poorly clothed, ancient woman to ask for the ability to bear children. She'd say: "Drink this bottle of azure cough serum at the commencement of your monthly cycle. Towards the median of your cycle behold the changes of your fluids. You must diligently inspect these fluids until you produce the magical egg white mucus. At the instant to which you see this egg white mucus you must make love to a male lover of which you desire to father your offspring. You will need to bide your time for exactly 2 weeks. After this 2 week period, you will need to mix the early morning's piss of your next missed menses and this stick to know if the potion has worked. You will know you have fallen pregnant if 2 lines magically appear on the stick. If by this time you have found your pursuits were unsuccessful, come back and I will give you a stronger potion for the next cycle."
As this is only my 3rd cycle, I haven't tried much in the way of encouraging conception besides sex and roughly gaging when I might ovulation. On CD 1 out of sadness,I did order amazon preseed and opks on amazon for the first time but I'm starting to feel like I don't want to get too far deep in to this stuff. It can consume you if you do, I think. I'm the type who really can't focus too much attention on one thing without everything falling apart. For one, my house is a mess! I've been spending too much time on the internet watching ttc YouTube and putting in ttc searches into google. I've also been a bit stressed about it in real life too. Being sad about AF coming, worrying about 'what if I cant?' What I really need to do is put a damn load of laundry in the washer! Clean up my closet! Hang up my dang clothes! How bout some vacuuming!? Put my house and life back in order and stop obsessing over something I really can't control.
A few weeks ago I went to Walgreen's to buy something or other and I ran into a product that claims to be able to tell you if you are fertile or not but you have to use it on the 3rd day of your cycle. I meant to go back and check it out yesterday but was way too tired after work. I'll try to remember to do that today after work. I hope it doesn't require first mornings pee...cuz that's long gone!
Some of this baby stuff sounds like magical potion making. Imagine walking through a creepy forest, to the base of a huge tree to find a short bent over, crazy grey haired, bony fingered, raspy voiced, poorly clothed, ancient woman to ask for the ability to bear children. She'd say: "Drink this bottle of azure cough serum at the commencement of your monthly cycle. Towards the median of your cycle behold the changes of your fluids. You must diligently inspect these fluids until you produce the magical egg white mucus. At the instant to which you see this egg white mucus you must make love to a male lover of which you desire to father your offspring. You will need to bide your time for exactly 2 weeks. After this 2 week period, you will need to mix the early morning's piss of your next missed menses and this stick to know if the potion has worked. You will know you have fallen pregnant if 2 lines magically appear on the stick. If by this time you have found your pursuits were unsuccessful, come back and I will give you a stronger potion for the next cycle."
As this is only my 3rd cycle, I haven't tried much in the way of encouraging conception besides sex and roughly gaging when I might ovulation. On CD 1 out of sadness,I did order amazon preseed and opks on amazon for the first time but I'm starting to feel like I don't want to get too far deep in to this stuff. It can consume you if you do, I think. I'm the type who really can't focus too much attention on one thing without everything falling apart. For one, my house is a mess! I've been spending too much time on the internet watching ttc YouTube and putting in ttc searches into google. I've also been a bit stressed about it in real life too. Being sad about AF coming, worrying about 'what if I cant?' What I really need to do is put a damn load of laundry in the washer! Clean up my closet! Hang up my dang clothes! How bout some vacuuming!? Put my house and life back in order and stop obsessing over something I really can't control.
Monday, August 20, 2012
CD 2
Though I was upset AF came, I have to admit she's been a gentle visitor. I ran out of my large horse tampons and have been able to manage with the smaller size I usually use for the tail end of my cycles. I also haven't really had much cramping. I do think I have less cramping because I didn't eat anything yesterday. That is NOT like me to skip meals let alone not eat a thing for a whole day. Weird as it may be, I was not hungry. I think there is something about the bloating of a period that makes me feel full. I was also a trifle upset to be getting my period and I didn't find the desire to really get up and leave my room until later in the night.
I know I have only been ttcing for 2 months now but I'm annoyed with people who seem to have had little trouble conceiving. My mom (though she has no idea I am ttcing) was going on about how all she had to do was say the word sex and she would get pregnant. My mother was married in august at the age of 21, exactly 9 months later right after getting married my brother was born. But who knows if my parents were practicing before marriage as well. I'll ask her another time.... I wouldn't want her to get suspicious of my adventures in babyland.
Another friend of mine, who is 1 year younger than me, got pregnant the first month she tried unprotected sex with her BF. She was 28 at the time. She quickly aborted because she wasn't ready for a baby. But that's crazy because she's very over weight, eats very poorly, doesn't exercise, smokes cigarettes and other green substances (like a chimney), drinks like a fish, has thyroid issues and had major surgery on her bowels. All of that among other health issues and here she is, pregnant instantly! (I really do love her dearly though) It just goes to show you, when it's your turn, it's your turn. And when it's not, it's really not! Being able to conceive and have a baby is truly an enormous blessing!
Because we don't know when we will be so lucky as to conceive, my BF and I have decided to keep this whole ttcing thing a secret from everyone. We basically just don't want the pressure of family and friends constantly asking how our sex life is going! "Did he get it in there good?" "Did he nail you on your baby making days?" "Try doggy style. He'll like that and it will go in deeper." LOL They wouldn't say those things exactly but I feel like this whole thing pretty much just breaks down to sex, so if they are asking how its going and maybe offering suggestions, they are essentially getting involved in the nitty gritty details of our sex life. While ttcing can get frustrating, we would like to keep the happenings of our bedroom sacred and secret... I'll just type about it on a public blog over the internet! Of course, no one in the real world, in my circles atleast, knows anything about this blog.
I know I have only been ttcing for 2 months now but I'm annoyed with people who seem to have had little trouble conceiving. My mom (though she has no idea I am ttcing) was going on about how all she had to do was say the word sex and she would get pregnant. My mother was married in august at the age of 21, exactly 9 months later right after getting married my brother was born. But who knows if my parents were practicing before marriage as well. I'll ask her another time.... I wouldn't want her to get suspicious of my adventures in babyland.
Another friend of mine, who is 1 year younger than me, got pregnant the first month she tried unprotected sex with her BF. She was 28 at the time. She quickly aborted because she wasn't ready for a baby. But that's crazy because she's very over weight, eats very poorly, doesn't exercise, smokes cigarettes and other green substances (like a chimney), drinks like a fish, has thyroid issues and had major surgery on her bowels. All of that among other health issues and here she is, pregnant instantly! (I really do love her dearly though) It just goes to show you, when it's your turn, it's your turn. And when it's not, it's really not! Being able to conceive and have a baby is truly an enormous blessing!
Because we don't know when we will be so lucky as to conceive, my BF and I have decided to keep this whole ttcing thing a secret from everyone. We basically just don't want the pressure of family and friends constantly asking how our sex life is going! "Did he get it in there good?" "Did he nail you on your baby making days?" "Try doggy style. He'll like that and it will go in deeper." LOL They wouldn't say those things exactly but I feel like this whole thing pretty much just breaks down to sex, so if they are asking how its going and maybe offering suggestions, they are essentially getting involved in the nitty gritty details of our sex life. While ttcing can get frustrating, we would like to keep the happenings of our bedroom sacred and secret... I'll just type about it on a public blog over the internet! Of course, no one in the real world, in my circles atleast, knows anything about this blog.
Sunday, August 19, 2012
so called + early pregnancy signs!
This past month I had some things happen to me which I thought were signs... Well I was wrong. Any how here are my false "signs":
1. I read that I was born on a full moon. So this month I turned 31 on 8/13, The full moon was expected to occur on 8/1 so supposedly you can BD on the phase of the moon you were born on and have a chance to conceive. FAIL
2. My horoscope said something to the effect that this month will be a really lucky month, perhaps I will get pregnant or be proposed to. BF had hoped to propose to me on my birthday (I weaseled it out of him) but had unexpected EXPENSIVE $2000 car problems to pay for and couldn't finish paying for my ring. FAIL
3. I kept running in to pregnant ladies. Thought baby dust would fly off on to me. FAIL
4. Saw an ex who I was SUPER D DUPER attracted to at a traffic light. He was one of those who kind of slipped through the cracks... From time to time I think "Man! We could have had some pretty kids! What the Hell happened there?!" He lives kind of far from me and I would never have expected to run into him accidentally. He actually saw me first, started honking his horn and waved. When I finally noticed him I was so excited. That same moment, the light turns green! He drives off while I'm sitting in the turning lane. What are the odds!? This has got to mean something...why not mean something connected to me making a baby? Wrong! FAIL
5. My across the hall neighbor at work, who's been there since I've been there, moved out. I got a new neighbor who I thought was going to be very annoying. I was dreading going back to work all summer because of it. She turns out to be really cool AND I heard from my work bff that she is also ttc #1. She's 3 years older than me which makes me feel good about myself. (yes younger bitches, I'm a hater! No shame!) So I thought, "What a funny coincidence!" Last year we spoke briefly about making babies and both said how we weren't ready. And lo and behold I'm ready and she's apparently ready too! Funny, I thought, this must be a good omen for me in a round about way. FAIL
6. CD 18 was 8/10. I was in walmart, RANDOMLY, buying the most random thing for a random project at work. This little girl comes out of no where, must have been 3 yrs old. And I was mesmerized by her and shamelessly started to stare at her converse with one annoyed walmart employee cleaning up a spill on all 4's. The little girl kept asking the women question after question after question about having to clean up this spill to the point where the angry woman had to smile at how curious and cute this little girl was! The woman answered all her questions too, it was funny because she was pissed off at first. The little girl was like bent over, hands on knees super in the lady's face in her cute little girl voice "Whatcha doing? Who spilled this? What was it? Oh, it was hot sauce? Is is burning your hand? Are you sad? Want me to help you? Did some one do this on purpose? etc etc After standing there a while staring, I thought where is this child's parents? I turned around to see a middle aged man holding a whole bunch of everything pink smiling from ear to ear in adoration watching too. He randomly looks at me and starts talking my ear off. (I'm think this guy HAS to be her father! Wow! They're talkers!) He goes; She's my little Oprah. She doesn't stop talking. She loves to go up to people and talk. (then it got a little too personal) He says: Me and my wife tried for a year for her. We found out my wife was pregnant Christmas eve and she was born on my birthday. Our birthday is this Monday, August 13th. WHOA! DUDE! SO IS MINE!! So Now I'm thinking maybe I will get a +hpt for my birthday. Well this was an awesome episode in my life but still a ttc sign FAIL
7. 8/13 MY BIRTHDAY! There had apparently been a meteor shower! I heard about it that morning driving to work. I thought MAN! I missed it! What a memorable siting that would be to kick off my bday with a meteor shower! As soon as I finish saying that, I see one dart across the sky!!! This was the 1st meteor I had EVER seen! I knew this had to be a sign! Pretty amazing, but still a FAIL
8. 8/15 in the wee hours of the morning, it was still dark out. I went to go get some gas before heading out for work. This older man in the car across from me starts screaming and holding up a ticket in his hand. He's screaming I WON! I WON! TODAY IS MY LUCKY DAY! I WON $100!!!!! He cashed his ticket and drove off in this really beat up rusty car playing Michael Jackson's Don't Stop til you get enough. I don't know, thought his good fortune would rub off on me. FAIL
9. 8/16 I started sneezing, getting sinus headaches, stuffy nose issues. A tiny voice in my head said "This could be a sign that you are preggo!" I mean who gets a cold in August? And I don't ever remember having problems with allergies this time of year... FAIL
10. 8/15 slept for 10 hours straight it was awesome! 8/16 I wiped after peeing at work and saw cm and light brown stuff mixed together on my tp. I thought man am I getting AF already!? It's like 5 days early! Dang it! But she didn't come. So I thought, 3 days later, wait a second was that IB?? I had it again 8/18 after BDing and thought maybe BF shook it up in there and made more IB come out. I bought 2 pregnancy tests and told myself I would wait til I missed af. The sales clerk was being all weird about it too. He was smiling and speaking loudly like "You want to buy this kind? Ok. Cuz you GOT to know! Know what I mean? You just GOT to know!" Course, I couldn't wait til af was missed. I got back 2 BFN! Thinking well if it just implanted, it's to early to check! Be Cool! Then I wake up this morning in a puddle of my own blood, one damn day earlier than expected! FAIL
1. I read that I was born on a full moon. So this month I turned 31 on 8/13, The full moon was expected to occur on 8/1 so supposedly you can BD on the phase of the moon you were born on and have a chance to conceive. FAIL
2. My horoscope said something to the effect that this month will be a really lucky month, perhaps I will get pregnant or be proposed to. BF had hoped to propose to me on my birthday (I weaseled it out of him) but had unexpected EXPENSIVE $2000 car problems to pay for and couldn't finish paying for my ring. FAIL
3. I kept running in to pregnant ladies. Thought baby dust would fly off on to me. FAIL
4. Saw an ex who I was SUPER D DUPER attracted to at a traffic light. He was one of those who kind of slipped through the cracks... From time to time I think "Man! We could have had some pretty kids! What the Hell happened there?!" He lives kind of far from me and I would never have expected to run into him accidentally. He actually saw me first, started honking his horn and waved. When I finally noticed him I was so excited. That same moment, the light turns green! He drives off while I'm sitting in the turning lane. What are the odds!? This has got to mean something...why not mean something connected to me making a baby? Wrong! FAIL
5. My across the hall neighbor at work, who's been there since I've been there, moved out. I got a new neighbor who I thought was going to be very annoying. I was dreading going back to work all summer because of it. She turns out to be really cool AND I heard from my work bff that she is also ttc #1. She's 3 years older than me which makes me feel good about myself. (yes younger bitches, I'm a hater! No shame!) So I thought, "What a funny coincidence!" Last year we spoke briefly about making babies and both said how we weren't ready. And lo and behold I'm ready and she's apparently ready too! Funny, I thought, this must be a good omen for me in a round about way. FAIL
6. CD 18 was 8/10. I was in walmart, RANDOMLY, buying the most random thing for a random project at work. This little girl comes out of no where, must have been 3 yrs old. And I was mesmerized by her and shamelessly started to stare at her converse with one annoyed walmart employee cleaning up a spill on all 4's. The little girl kept asking the women question after question after question about having to clean up this spill to the point where the angry woman had to smile at how curious and cute this little girl was! The woman answered all her questions too, it was funny because she was pissed off at first. The little girl was like bent over, hands on knees super in the lady's face in her cute little girl voice "Whatcha doing? Who spilled this? What was it? Oh, it was hot sauce? Is is burning your hand? Are you sad? Want me to help you? Did some one do this on purpose? etc etc After standing there a while staring, I thought where is this child's parents? I turned around to see a middle aged man holding a whole bunch of everything pink smiling from ear to ear in adoration watching too. He randomly looks at me and starts talking my ear off. (I'm think this guy HAS to be her father! Wow! They're talkers!) He goes; She's my little Oprah. She doesn't stop talking. She loves to go up to people and talk. (then it got a little too personal) He says: Me and my wife tried for a year for her. We found out my wife was pregnant Christmas eve and she was born on my birthday. Our birthday is this Monday, August 13th. WHOA! DUDE! SO IS MINE!! So Now I'm thinking maybe I will get a +hpt for my birthday. Well this was an awesome episode in my life but still a ttc sign FAIL
7. 8/13 MY BIRTHDAY! There had apparently been a meteor shower! I heard about it that morning driving to work. I thought MAN! I missed it! What a memorable siting that would be to kick off my bday with a meteor shower! As soon as I finish saying that, I see one dart across the sky!!! This was the 1st meteor I had EVER seen! I knew this had to be a sign! Pretty amazing, but still a FAIL
8. 8/15 in the wee hours of the morning, it was still dark out. I went to go get some gas before heading out for work. This older man in the car across from me starts screaming and holding up a ticket in his hand. He's screaming I WON! I WON! TODAY IS MY LUCKY DAY! I WON $100!!!!! He cashed his ticket and drove off in this really beat up rusty car playing Michael Jackson's Don't Stop til you get enough. I don't know, thought his good fortune would rub off on me. FAIL
9. 8/16 I started sneezing, getting sinus headaches, stuffy nose issues. A tiny voice in my head said "This could be a sign that you are preggo!" I mean who gets a cold in August? And I don't ever remember having problems with allergies this time of year... FAIL
10. 8/15 slept for 10 hours straight it was awesome! 8/16 I wiped after peeing at work and saw cm and light brown stuff mixed together on my tp. I thought man am I getting AF already!? It's like 5 days early! Dang it! But she didn't come. So I thought, 3 days later, wait a second was that IB?? I had it again 8/18 after BDing and thought maybe BF shook it up in there and made more IB come out. I bought 2 pregnancy tests and told myself I would wait til I missed af. The sales clerk was being all weird about it too. He was smiling and speaking loudly like "You want to buy this kind? Ok. Cuz you GOT to know! Know what I mean? You just GOT to know!" Course, I couldn't wait til af was missed. I got back 2 BFN! Thinking well if it just implanted, it's to early to check! Be Cool! Then I wake up this morning in a puddle of my own blood, one damn day earlier than expected! FAIL
CD 1
This has not been a happy day at all!
This previous cycle I started out hopeful then I was doubtful and then I thought we were successful and then SLAM!! AF! Bitches! In your face!
This Morning I woke up, alone in a puddle of my own blood, surrounded by used tissues and a roll of toilet paper (dealing with a stupid cold/or allergy. ugh!). You can imagine how angry, annoyed and sad I felt.
So I went on amazon and I ordered preseed, some 50 opk's, 20 hpt's and began this blog. Here's hoping C#3 will be more successful....and I will continue to post!
can I just say, EWCM! WTF! When I was in my 20's I had all kinds of fluid crap in my undies ALL the time to the point where I mustered up enough courage, though I was really embarrased, to ask my Dr when I was 25 is there something wrong with me. And all he said was, with a smile (exact words) "No. When you get older you will wish you had this." And stupid me I left it at that. I should have said: (first off) WHY??? (second) How much older are we talking about?
I just realized not to long ago, I don't get half as much of that crap in my knickers anymore! Oh so that's what the heck he was talking about! Damn, should have made this ttc thing happen earlier!
Oh well! That's life aint it!?
This previous cycle I started out hopeful then I was doubtful and then I thought we were successful and then SLAM!! AF! Bitches! In your face!
This Morning I woke up, alone in a puddle of my own blood, surrounded by used tissues and a roll of toilet paper (dealing with a stupid cold/or allergy. ugh!). You can imagine how angry, annoyed and sad I felt.
So I went on amazon and I ordered preseed, some 50 opk's, 20 hpt's and began this blog. Here's hoping C#3 will be more successful....and I will continue to post!
can I just say, EWCM! WTF! When I was in my 20's I had all kinds of fluid crap in my undies ALL the time to the point where I mustered up enough courage, though I was really embarrased, to ask my Dr when I was 25 is there something wrong with me. And all he said was, with a smile (exact words) "No. When you get older you will wish you had this." And stupid me I left it at that. I should have said: (first off) WHY??? (second) How much older are we talking about?
I just realized not to long ago, I don't get half as much of that crap in my knickers anymore! Oh so that's what the heck he was talking about! Damn, should have made this ttc thing happen earlier!
Oh well! That's life aint it!?
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