All the symptoms I said I had at 10 dpo are totally gone, so I wonder if I just made it up....?
I basically feel nothing except feeling bloated and having slightly sore boobs. I still haven't reached my AF date.
12dpo 13 dpo
I COULDN'T WAIT 21 DAYS TO TELL BF!!!! I told him 2 nights ago! I hadn't been sleeping. I'd be up all night with thoughts racing through my mind some of them thoughts of joy and others total fear! I started thinking "Oh my goodness! What have I done?! I'm not even married yet! I don't even have my engagement ring!
So I woke BF up 2 nights ago in the middle of his deep sleep to ask BF if he ever asked his friend about marrying us and how soon I'd get my ring. He was sooo pissed! He was like "Really "Mich"? Do you really need to wake me up from my sleep to ask that now?? I have to go to work early!" He was starting to get all worked up and got up and sat on the edge of the bed not really responding. So I finally told him, at that moment because he was so pissed and had no idea where these questions were coming from all of a sudden, so urgent. He was so shocked. He immediately got back in bed with me and literally squeezed me tight, kissing me and hugging me and telling me he loved me.
Today at work, my work bff asked me how I was doing and I blurted out "I'm pregnant!" It just flew out of my mouth before I could stop it! I just got finished telling her yesterday that if I were pregnant, I wouldn't tell her until the first trimester ended. So much for that!
I really hope and pray I won't spill the beans to anyone else yet! I need a stapler for my mouth!
My across the hall neighbor at work is also ttcing and from time to time we talk about it. I want to tell her sooo bad but I think she is having a rather difficult time getting preg. She has been trying for a few months. But the thing is, is that she doesn't often get her period and her gyn says she doesn't ovulate regularly. She's really upset about it because her family all just assumes "Oh So and So? No! She's 34 she'll never have kids! I don't think they want any!"
But honestly, time really does creep up on you! I still have these doubts like "Hold on I don't think I'm old enough to be some one's mom yet.." And then here I am 31, biologically starting to try to be pushing it age wise! And she said the same thing! She and I had similar experiences in our 20's. We spent extended periods of time travelling out of the country. I moved far away from friends and family to a new state where I bought my house. I spent most of my 20's in a serious but very destructive relationship, broke up with him after 8 years and spent the next 4 years meeting new guys and having new experiences with all of them while finding my own identity. I got a bachelors degree and years later got my masters.
Making babies was the last thing on my mind in my 20's.
So now here I am, 10 years after losing my virginity, I'm going to be a mommy! (God willing)
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